Diplomat’s Son

It’s not right but it’s now or never 
And if I wait could I ever forgive myself? 

On a night when the moon glows yellow in the riptide 
With the light from the TVs buzzing in the house 

Cuz I’m gonna cut it where I can 
And then I’m gonna duck out behind them 
If I ever had a chance it’s now then 
But I never had the feeling I could offer that to you 

To offer it to you would be cruel 
When all I want to do is use, use you 

He was a diplomat’s son 
It was ‘81 

Dressed in white with my car keys hidden in the kitchen 
I could sleep wherever I lay my head 

And the sight of your two shoes sitting in the bathtub 
Let me know that I shouldn’t give up just yet 

Cuz I’m gonna take it from Simon 
And then I’m gonna duck out behind them 
If I ever had a chance it’s now then 
But I never had the feeling I could offer that to you 

To offer it to you would be cruel 
When all I want to do is use, use you 

He was a diplomat’s son 
It was ‘81 

I know, you’ll say 
I’m not doing it right 
But this is how I want it 

I can’t go back 
To how I felt before— 

That night I smoked a joint 
With my best friend 
We found ourselves in bed 
When I woke up he was gone 

He was the diplomat’s son 
It was ‘81 

Looking out at the ice-cold water all around me 
I can’t feel any traces of that other place 

In the dark when the wind comes racing off the river 
There’s a car all black with diplomatic plates